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Tue, 29 Jul 2008 17:32:37 GMT

i remember two years ago, i stood in a pool hall, staring at leslie, and wondering if it was all really just a dream. I dreamt so many times abt seeing her, so much that, when i finally saw her, it felt surreal. Today I had the same feeling.

Everyday after work, I will walk past the same river, lit up with christmas lights strung all the way along the park beside it. kei sut i think its really romantic, to walk with someone down that path at night. but i dont think ill ever really get the chance to do that~ coming to hk, I dont think ive ever felt so alone in my life. somehow, coming to hk made me realize how much i depend on my friends, and how much they mean to me. but at the same time i realize that nobody really relies on me. what i have to offer to my friends, is very insignificant. why is that?

yuen loi i am not good at making anyone happy at all~ I am only good at making myself happy by burdening my friends. everyone is so used to a me that is surrounded by friends, surrounded by creeps, and never stops for anyone or anything. and ive spent a lot of the past 2 years, trying to keep my standards high, to fulfill my friends expectations...

im tired of all of it... n after being alone for the past 2 months, i just want to be alone. Ive become used to eatting dinner by myself.. walking home by myself, going everywhere by myself. Nobody here in hk needs me~ so shouldnt I be very happy since i dont have to fulfil any expectations at all?

everyone i know, they all have really close childhood friends, they all have a tight group. I never had friends growing up, and I never made any close friends before i went to university. I wont ever know what it feels like to feel needed by a friend. so is that a good thing?

in the end, i really do have myself, and only myself

do you remember?

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 10:12:51 GMT

do you know what today is?

a year ago today, i met you for the first time.
there you were, standing there in a sea of people,
and for a moment, time stopped.
i still remember.

a year ago,
15 hours from now will be the first time i saw you.
7 days from now, you would have been in portland, texting me 10 times an hour.
9 days from now, will be the first time i ever drank, and it will have been with you.
right after that, we would have went to see a meteor shower together
15 shooting stars later, we will go home

on the 13th, i took 4 pictures with you. we drew on them for 2 hours.
you were there for me when i ran away from her, and when i was out on the streets.
you took care of me.
the day i left, we ran around the airport,
i even missed my flight.

we lived each minute like it was our last together,
because it was.

and one year later im still wondering why i ever left.
i miss you.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 19:36:50 GMT

so this one time i was sitting here wondering how the crap everything turned out the way it did over the past half a year. what ive come to realize is that if you want someone to change, whether its for better or for worse, you should only expect to see changes if that person can truly understand why you want that person to change, because when that person truly understands, he/she will become motivated to change.

Im tired of being a nice guy lu... tired of relying on someone, and sucking at taking care of myself. Its time i started to walk on my own. What happened in the past, even in the recent past, as of now, i will not let it burden me anymore. screw thermo. im going to do better next time. forget emily. i dont even know if i ever really liked her anyway.

if i continue feeling bad for everything i feel ive done wrong in the past, if i keep hating myself, regretting my past actions and over analyzing every single thing, im going to finish last.

總覺得有少少唔安樂，　不果我絕對無後悔，因為我有曾經想擁有過。

time will heal [ everything ]

Wed, 02 May 2007 02:39:53 GMT

there she was, sitting two tables behind me
i didn't even dare look back

but i didn't need to, because the tears had already started flowing.

and then i met you.
and life couldnt be happier

at first...
i thought you could help me move on
i thought you understood
i thought you really cared

but now i know
you won't even listen
you aren't even willing to give me a chance
you wont even give me a reason
i don't know what i did wrong

why won't you be the girl i fell in love with?
thats why i wont care anymore
until you care.

Take 2

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 19:43:24 GMT

So despite being completely screwed for calc cuz my doctors note has some SERIOUS complications, I wanna turn your attention to this:

If you guys got time this month, on the last friday and saturday of this month, which is the 27/28th, please come to my church to watch a drama I'm doing =) hahah it's my third year, and it could be my last... cuz next spring ill be in school (if i can manage to make it into 3rd year) Oh btw its all in canto. so if you can read, uhh the info is at the bottom of this pic http://tjcac.org/drama/poster_sm.jpg

Its on April 27th (friday) and April 28th (saturday)
Starts at 8:00pm
For directions to my church click here

anyway, come... and you get to see me put on makeup =D

THIS IS SPARTAAAAAA!!!!!

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 09:38:32 GMT

props to westley lol
so yesterday he told me to check out this page where they have tons of 300 spoofs.
soooo jokes lol some of these pictures are great ahahaha and the videos are priceless~~
here are some of my favorites

the gas we pass

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 07:25:47 GMT

When an elephant farts, the farts are really big.
BAAROOMM
People fart too. Bubbles rise...
plip, plip, plip.
When you eat or drink, you swallow air.
And if you eat or drink in a big hurry, you swallow a whole lot of air.
The air that escapes through your mouth becomes a burp.
BURP!
When it comes out the hole in your bottom, it's a fart, also called passing gas.
BRROOM
Besides coming from the air you swallow, farts come from the gases found in your large intestine. (food that your body doesn't use) is broken down by bacteria, rots and becomes poop.
That's why farts stink!
A healthy person releases almost half a cup of gas in a single fart (about 3.5oz.)
In one day, just over 2 cups of gas are released in farts (about 17oz. or just over half a quart).
If you try too hard to hold your farts, your stomach may hurt,
you could get dizzy or you could get a headache.
So, don't hold them in - pass that gas!
(more continued...)

Can you believe someone would write a book like this?
oh wait nvm the author is japanese, no wonder.
LMAO jappob

cant believe its true

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 06:49:09 GMT

elva tingting and emily
thnx for being there for me that day
i honest don't know what id be doing without you guys luu
i hope this dream can last a little longer
because i found something to hold onto again

i love you~~!! <3

[ e v e r y t h i n g . ]

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 17:51:24 GMT

So yesterday I wrote another song for you~
But more and more i find that
there are no words that can express what i feel,
because i dont know what i feel anymore.
am i content with waiting?
or have i finally come to accept the fact that...

I've lost.

What did I have to lose in order to get a glimpse of it?
Was it worth it?
I already know the answer.
If it happens now
I won't give myself a second chance.
I won't look back.

Because you never did either.

點算呀?

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 07:26:25 GMT

you know? sometimes i dont even know what i want anymore.
ever since then, it's always been one emotion.
and because of that emotion,
i fall behind because i cant concentrate.
i get sick and i cant get better.
i lose weight because i lose my appetite.
happiness is gone. i want to run away. i want to hide.

i wish i could rely on someone.

妳有能力控制我個快樂,我個幸福,但同時妳有能力控制我個悲感,控制我心內個痛苦.
我腦叫我好心放手,但我心叫我畀自己多啲時間....
我...點可能忘記妳哩? 因為,其實我最唔捨得果個係...妳.
sorry 呀.我唔想要妳擔心我la.
我知道我要好好照顧自己...
因為冇人會理我ga